That Look!!

Ok, I knew the time would come when I would get "that look" the one that says ok I am not interested in what is wrong with you, you are just playing for sympathy I have heard it all before there is nothing wrong with you girl, pull yourself together, "that look".

I suppose I have done very well and that is down to the quality and quantity of my friends every single one of them has been fantastic and really supportive so I was quite shocked when I got "that look" from someone who works in mental health and really should know better.

I hope they don't treat their patients like that because if they do that's obviously the downfall of our wonderful NHS.

I did manage the social occasion yesterday though still wanted to come home to the safe place by half way through.

Under normal circumstances I would have been overjoyed, nervous and very excited at the outcome of yesterday but for some reason even though I was pleased I didn't have any emotion for it as I would have had in the past.

I used to enjoy socialising so much and was always the life and soul of the party at any event, now I shut myself down and hide away at the slightest opportunity.

And I am sure "that look" didn't help me to overcome my guilt at the way I feel...