Another Day

Yesterday I ventured to the Post Office to collect a parcel, there was a slight queue and I could feel the sweating start up as I got nearer the end of the queue, I also did the weekly shop and again in the checkout queue the sweats started.

I really should be thinking about going back to work but the thought of walking through the doors and seeing all those people puts the fear of dread in me.

Where did these nerves and fear come from? I am not a nervous person, never have been infact I have always been the opposite jumping in where others fear to tread would have been a more suitable description for me.

Over the next couple of weeks I will share the various things in my life which have brought me to this stage, it hasn't always been easy but I have just got on with things like most people do, apparently I have come to a point where after my last loss my mind and body have decided these things need dealing with so deal with them I am trying to do with the help of my therapist.

I have a social event tomorrow so we will just see how that goes, I am getting nervous already and it's something that I love to do normally.