Job Interview

Well here goes folks update on today's interview, after a very sleepness night going through what I should do about my dirty secret I decided to call the Agency and be honest with them, they advised me not to mention it at this stage and to just go in and sell myself with the hope I could get a second interview.

The morning started ok, got myself all spruced up set off believing I had left plenty of time to get there only to not take into consideration the bloody railway lines.

Anyway thanks to getting held up with the train I walked in bang on time for my interview, fortunately the person I was seeing had run slightly over in a meeting so it didn't look to glaringly obvious.

After all my work last night I found it the most pleasant interview I have ever been in, it was quite informal but informed at the same time, I had prepped myself with different scenarios in my head, ones which I would probably ask had I been interviewing someone myself.

Everytime I was asked a question I brought up one of the scenarios and how I had dealt with it. The interview went on for 1 1/2 hrs but was so relaxed and friendly I almost felt like I was sat chatting with a friend. I loved it and realised even more so that I am defintely in the wrong job.

On the way out, one of the people who interviewed me informed me I had interviewed very well, he also said he doesn't like to paint a rosy picture that the job was full of challenges and I seemed like the kind of person who relished a challenge also that I was the kind of person he was looking for. (Must have done something right).

I bounced out back to my tigger days which I thought I had forgotten I rang everyone furiously from the car park including my therapist to inform them of how things had gone.

On the way home my mobile rang and it was the Agency asking me how it had gone, so off I went again bouncing along about how well I thought it had gone how I was nervous about my dirty little secret coming out when she announced in the midst of my hysteria that I had been asked back for a second interview and after that point should they offer me the position she would tell them my secret in the hope that they would have fallen in love with me so much that it won't make any difference.

It is a job I would love to do it sounds great, no high pressure selling for a start.

If nothing else comes of this from the second interview no one can take away the feeling I had today being back in the real world, oozing confidence and someone listening to what I was saying and obviously impressed with what I was saying.

Welcome back Tigger you have been a long time coming but I knew you where still in there somewhere.......

Job Interview Tomorrow

Ok, not sure how I bluffed this one but believe you me there is a lot more bluffing to do tomorrow.

After 8 weeks of counselling I have now established that the route of my depression is actually work related.

Without naming names I work for a very large financial services provider in a very presurised selling environment based on hitting targets, which in all honesty can't be achieved without disturbing the work/life balance considerably.

With working for a large company everything has to be written up and double written up in evidence of everything you do. I have always been a practical person, prefer to get things done then to spout off to everyone around I have done it.

I have also been awaiting a regrade in my present position for the last year that has been put back and put back until I have become totally disheartened by the whole thing, there is only so much rejection I can take without becoming unprofessional.

The annoying part of it is I am capable of so much more but they won't recognise it without reams and reams of reports to back it up.

I applied for this job totally on the spur of the moment, in fact I didn't apply for the job they are interviewing me for I applied for a lower down scale job and after seeing my CV (must be good at putting something in writing) they offered me an interview for the Department Manager's job instead.

I have received the job description tonight for which I tick all the boxes and more, I have done quite a bit of research tonight on the company involved and also completed a new SWOT analysis on myself and wrote out how I am going to inform them I have been off sick.

I chose not to tell the agency who are sending me for fear that the company concerned would not even consider me for a job I am very capable of doing, I chose to try and get the interviewer onside by testing my own people skills to the full.

I could not even bring it up at all but I know I have to be honest with him as I do with myself, it will be quite wierd discussing this with a total stranger which is as much a test for me as anything else.

For any of you out there that do pass my way by chance this job is in the caring industry which I find quite ironic after a previous post on here.

Oh well please wish me luck and hope that I at least get the interview after I have disclosed my dirty little secret....

I will update you tomorrow when I return either way..