Pre second interview check list

Ok the day has nearly come when I have to reveal myself at my second interview tomorrow, I am not going to bring it up until the end of the interview unless there is an appropriate time to do so before.

I have worked out what I am going to say so hopefully it should come out ok.

I have sat and read through all the Company information that I can glean today so I will try to slot some bits in throughout.

I am getting really quite nervous because this is probably the only time I have actually wanted the job I am going for.

I have always started at the bottom and worked my way up through promotion in the past so to go to the top of the tree from the off is quite scary.

I don't have any fears of being able to do the job, I ticked all the boxes on the last interview I am worried most about the reaction I am going to get to the information I am going to give.

As I have said before it is in the Private caring industry so I am hoping above hope that they will have some empathy if not sympathy for the situation and see past it to what I can offer them in return.

Oh well I will update you all as soon as I have been and let you know how it goes.

Going out tonight but won't be drinking because of the meds, doesn't really bother me anymore I have got used to it.

I suppose I always associated drinking with wild night outs and now I aren't up for wild nights out the drinking as paled into insignificance.

I have found the part of me that can still be quite entertaining without drinking I never thought it possible in all honesty.

Speak soon, bye for now xx

Job Interview Tomorrow

Ok, not sure how I bluffed this one but believe you me there is a lot more bluffing to do tomorrow.

After 8 weeks of counselling I have now established that the route of my depression is actually work related.

Without naming names I work for a very large financial services provider in a very presurised selling environment based on hitting targets, which in all honesty can't be achieved without disturbing the work/life balance considerably.

With working for a large company everything has to be written up and double written up in evidence of everything you do. I have always been a practical person, prefer to get things done then to spout off to everyone around I have done it.

I have also been awaiting a regrade in my present position for the last year that has been put back and put back until I have become totally disheartened by the whole thing, there is only so much rejection I can take without becoming unprofessional.

The annoying part of it is I am capable of so much more but they won't recognise it without reams and reams of reports to back it up.

I applied for this job totally on the spur of the moment, in fact I didn't apply for the job they are interviewing me for I applied for a lower down scale job and after seeing my CV (must be good at putting something in writing) they offered me an interview for the Department Manager's job instead.

I have received the job description tonight for which I tick all the boxes and more, I have done quite a bit of research tonight on the company involved and also completed a new SWOT analysis on myself and wrote out how I am going to inform them I have been off sick.

I chose not to tell the agency who are sending me for fear that the company concerned would not even consider me for a job I am very capable of doing, I chose to try and get the interviewer onside by testing my own people skills to the full.

I could not even bring it up at all but I know I have to be honest with him as I do with myself, it will be quite wierd discussing this with a total stranger which is as much a test for me as anything else.

For any of you out there that do pass my way by chance this job is in the caring industry which I find quite ironic after a previous post on here.

Oh well please wish me luck and hope that I at least get the interview after I have disclosed my dirty little secret....

I will update you tomorrow when I return either way..